Really need to get my fandom mojo back.

[emmagrant01]

Every time I go anywhere near Tumblr these days, I start to hear about wank, so I back off again. It's summer and I have a kid on my hands full time at the moment, so it's easy to just keep busy doing other things. And between threepatch and tumblr_refuge, I feel like I'm staying reasonably active in the fandom (and having fun while doing it).

But I have a Sherlock fic I really, really need to finish, and I have to figure out how to find the motivation to do it. It's set after HLV, so there is all of that to deal with, and wow. That's just hard right now. I'm not sure what I believe about Mary's backstory and where John's and Sherlock's heads are after that episode. (Not that I think everyone else is sure either, but man, that makes it complicated to work out the plot.)  And when I start to think about the unpleasant comments I am bound to get on it (because no matter what you write, you're going to upset someone who doesn't know how to use the back button these days), it makes me want to forget the whole thing and go do something else.

But I can't, because it's being written for someone who paid a large amount of money for a fic from me in a fandom fundraiser, and this is the fic she wanted. And it's been a year and I really do need to get it done. I actually like the prompt a lot and think that if I can just get myself back to work on it, it will probably turn out to be something I will enjoy writing.  drinkingcocoa has seen a few chapters and has assured me that it's worth writing, and that it will turn out well.

BG will be in a day camp next week from 9-5 every day, and so I will have time to sit down and write. I just need the motivation to actually do it. Got any you can spare? :-P

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Motivation

[afsutton.livejournal.com]

Here: have a Cumberbum:

http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_md4yv23TVd1rcnjmyo1_500.png

That motivation enough for you? ;-)

In all seriousness, I can only echo what's been already said. So many people on Tumblr seem to forget that the whole POINT of fanfic is sometimes to explore all the various POTENTIAL possibilities that are out there, and just because you write a certain plotline doesn't mean you necessarily want said plotline to actually happen. (Hell, I once wrote a Quantum Leap fanfic where because of timey-wimey reasons, Sam Beckett actually never leaped in the first place and was happily married to his wife as a result. It was one of the most depressing stories I ever wrote.)

They also seem to forget that you don't necessarily CHOOSE your plots (even if they aren't gifts). I mean, I had no intention of writing a story that delved into John's survivor guilt due to Sherlock's (supposed) suicide, but that's what the damn muse wanted.

I know you're one of the few fanfic writers that I will read regardless of what it is: you could write a story shipping tea and a cup, and I'd read it and kudo it. (Great - if you actually write this up, I write fanfic under the name Kylara Ingress .)

Sometimes, fandom means you have to have a thick skin about what you like and what you do - and that sucks.

So, sending mental good vibes (and chocolate - http://yummyandscrummy.com/files/2012/10/melted-chocolate.jpg ) your way.

Re: Motivation

[emmagrant01.livejournal.com]

I'm at a point where I would really rather write AUs and crossovers and such -- anything to avoid the reality of series 3! But just in writing this and discussing it a bit, I'm starting to get excited about working on it again, so that's definitely a good thing!